Humm...

My husband is Hot!

Just don't tell him I said that, he might actually think that I like him :)

God is Here

Most nights I just lay awake, listening to the sound of my husband snoring loudly beside me. Once in a while, I'd fling my arm over and punch him, either aiming for his chest, back (depending on how he's laying) or his face. Most of the time, he doesn't alter his sleeping, maybe he'd soften his snoring a little, or on those rare occasion's he'd wake up long enough to ask "what?" before falling asleep again.
I would continue laying a wake in the dark for another hour or so. With each passing minute, the deeper my heart sinks into despair. I have dealt with depression for the majority of my life, I think the last time I was truly free from the suffocation and fog of this consuming darkness was when I was five. But, this time it's different. My "good days" seem to be getting shorter and the time between them longer. When I cry, it's heavy and comes from so deep within I feel as though I am being torn a part. I feel...hopeless. I'm not convinced that I am hopeless, but for others who have not experienced this, that might be the only description I have words for.
I recently read 'The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment' by, Jeremiah Burroughs. He wrote deeply and beautifully on what the character of a Christian ought to be. The one thing that has buried it's self into my heart is this, he writes:
"It is suitable to my heart to yield to God and to be content."
It is suitable to my heart, that is why I am not hopeless. God is here. God is here and I am content.

I caught her...

Some of you know by now that Aaron and I had our ultra sound appointment today, we saw Ava Marie in all her glory! But what you don't know is what happened durring the visit. For the past several weeks, when Ava would kick or punch me, it wasn't those soft little flutters most women gab about. She has force behind those jabs and I was convinced that they were deliberate and planed. The ultra sound tech was amazed at how active she was and asked if this (10:30) was her "busy" time, I said all day was her "busy" time and we continued to watch her wiggle. The tech laughed and point at the monitor, "see her hand? She's feeling around for something." I shook my head and said that Ava was probably looking for a place to hit me. To the tech's amazment, Ava then made a fist...